by Diane Chandler

352 pages  |  B Format 129mm x 198mm  

Paperback Nov 2016  |  ISBN 9780995473522  | £7.99

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A 2nd novel by the WINNER of The People's Book Prize for fiction 2016


How can you long for someone who doesn't exist?


Cat has always been in control of her life. Happily married to Dom, but flying high as a political lobbyist, she dismisses his desire to start a family ... until she herself is ready.

But what if it is then too late?
Complex and selfish, intelligent and open, if she is to succeed in having that elusive child, Cat must battle through gruelling fertility treatment and the emotional strain it places on her marriage. By her side, Dom, easygoing and ever the optimist, finds that he too risks being run ragged by their journey.
Both are forced to come to terms with their longing for a baby against the blitz on a relationship tested like never before...
IVF could create a baby but could it also destroy a marriage?
Bittersweet, at times funny, and always emotionally raw, this is by far the most moving and honest novel you'll ever read about IVF and its impact on a marriage.


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Ebook ISBN 9780995473539  


About the author


About The People's Book Prize

"This novel will stay with me forever. I really connected with it." The Addiction of Books"


If comedy lifts fallible fools upwards to love and success then tragedy brings those on high crashing down. What better heroine to pit against the cruel and whimsical cycles of the moon? By the end I wept, though I won't tell you why." S. E. Lynes, author of Valentina  


"Chandler has not pulled back from showing those aspects of the human condition that sometimes we’d rather gloss over."  Sara Bailey, author of Dark Water